Despite what you may intuit, I am not Cowboy Malfoy; nor is it my alter ego.

Cowboy Malfoy is a stage. A place to plant my feet and tell a story, to inhabit a character, to break open a confessional. A place to make sense of my personal experience.

I think the world is inundated with a certain narrative in popular media: “Be yourself”, “be proud of who you are”, what if I don't know who or what I am? I'm a trans non-binary individual living with OCD. So what’s there for us people who have trouble identifying, let alone understanding our own thoughts and feelings?

I go about my life unintuitively, and for folks like me, we’re searching for a validation for our uncertain, anxious existence. There are so many feelings of shame associated with not knowing who we are, and I’m fighting against that. I want people to be comfortable being wrong about themselves, and dissolve this idea in culture that we are unchanging.

This part of my identity feeds into my art, a sort of frantic indecision that has led me to pursue mathematics, coding, design, architecture, and ultimately, music. I draw from a lot of inspirations, transforming and reinterpreting things that already exist. Rather than believing I’m unique - I try to be conscious that creativity is an amalgamation of various existing things, experiences, and cultures. 

I am a reflection of the world as much as my music is a reflection of me, and Cowboy Malfoy is a testament to that.

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